Girls Night

Last night was one of the memorable nights of my life, hopefully for them too. Me, Trish and Tintin. They were so kind to accompany me to sleepover in San Juan. The Vega Family is currently in Aussie trying to see how their life would be in a matter of months now. We had our usual girl talks, truth about guys and what they call “love”. We’re like “bestfriends” but we’re not. It’s not really a planned thing, it just so happens that they are available and I don’t have someone with me doing the “house sitting“. I can’t find the right words. I’m also wondering why I’m still posting even though I can’t explain myself. Anyways, remembering what happened last night makes me smile.

Honestly, though I was hurt and struggling because of a lot of CIRCUMSTANCES, I find myself thinking and still longing for him. I know Trish and Tintin can relate to me coz they’ve been in similar situations and we’re just backing up each other. It’s amazing how people take things as it is. It’s funny that we all know why, how and what to do but we can’t do anything about it. There’s this something that hinders us from doing it. Maybe we’re too blinded with what we’re feeling and we deny it to ourselves. Sometimes I find myself giving up but there are things that make me hold on. I often rationalize what’s been happening to me and why I allowed it to happen. You can’t blame it all to someone coz I always tell myself that “it takes two to tango”. Is it time to let go or time to say goodbye? When will you know that you really had enough? What if it’s really not meant to be? *sigh* I don’t want to let go… I know there is HOPE.

I was surprised how Tintin manage to handle situations in her life. At the age of 18, I think she’s gone thru something incredible. And yes, she’s still young and will encounter a lot of endeavors. I know she can get thru it coz she is a strong-willed girl with a firm personality. She is one of the people who are “Living in the Present”. Also, I can’t help but compare her to Xtian! They think the same. The way of coping up, the views, pretty everything. I saw myself grinning while she tells her stories and how she reacts on it. She was pretty much a girl version of Xtian. Hehehe. =)

In one month, Trish will be leaving the Philippines and work in Shenzen, China. I’m happy for her but I’m missing her already. Time flies by so quickly and you wouldn’t notice, it’s time to say “see you soon”. No goodbyes and farewell, just “see you soon” Trish. In a short span of time, I knew who Trisha Hanna Lapid is, a strong girl with a vulnerable heart.

I was browsing thru Ala Paredes’ blog and I read that she left the Phils and migrated in Australia. At an instant, I remembered Trish. The agony of counting the days, hours, minutes and seconds before she flies to China.